Well today was a bit wacky.
Had a bit of conflict. I thought I had done something right, but ultimately I had done something wrong. (I got the principle right, but handled it wrongly.) I got it figured out quickly, apologized and then spent most of the day depressed. I'm a perfectionist...and that's my pattern. When I mess up, even if the other person accepts my apology, I beat myself up for a long time.
It's during these times I want to run away. "Why did I ever start this?" or "I'm just too busy for this, I don't want to do this." I want to throw the thing that caused the conflict away. I want to find a cave and hide. I should review my own, "I'm so sick of __________" post on this blog.{rolling my eyes}
Well that's my bit of honesty for today. I'm praying about this, for I'm certain God has something profoundly important for me to learn. (Most likely more than one thing.)
Silly me.
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